Meteor Shower…

Tonight I will be up watching a meteor shower…by myself :O(  Jo has to work and won’t get to see it.  It’s supposed to start good around midnight which is great cause I will still be up!  Her schedule still has me messed up and I find it very hard to sleep without her there.  During the week I only get about 5 hrs. a night but on the weekends…it’s something like 10-11 hrs. 

In weight loss land – from somewhere out of the blue I got a shot of motivation and I am going to ride it as long as I can.  I suddenly have the strength to say NO to the bad things like mayo on sandwiches again.  I got a pedometer yesterday from the Active For L.ife program that we are doing at work.  I just have to log my daily activities now and hopefully our team will win!  I am competitive so that’s enough to drive me to complete this 12 weeks program.

In TTC world – still waiting on AF.  I am sure it’s because I changed my exercise routine that it’s taking SOOOOO long.  My last cycle was something like 48 -50 days.  The longest I ever went was 6 months without but then it turned back around and I had six months of AF….everyday.  I eventually ended up in the hospital anemic and had to have medication to stop the menses.   Really crappy. 

Otherwise, things are good.  My mom told me she was getting married and, I’m not sure yet, but I don’t know if I am happy about it.  I never expected her to get back with dad but something is still off.  Dentist appt to replace 2 fillings coming up next week and my boss is out from work on maternity leave.

 

update on the “bitch”

So Monday went pretty much as expected.  She sat in meeting and tried to be all sweet.  What she didn’t know is that I was expecting that and I came prepared to keep my job at all costs…even if it meant sucking up a little…to her.   So I bit the bullet and admitted that I made a mistake and that my frustration with the situation (not her) got in the way of good professional judgment.  I came to her because I trusted her and needed her help and she refused me.  To which she replied – “I didn’t know you needed me like that” and I said “well I did”. 

I genuinely believe that I should have done things differently and I do feel remorse for the trouble I did cause – it’s not like me to act out – especially at work.  However, I don’t feel like I should apologize to her – and I didn’t.  I am still peeved… but I still have my job.  Thank you God. 

My temps have been staying right around the same all month long with an occasional blip that looks out of place.  Today is CD 28 and my boobs started getting sore yesterday.  Last time I had sore boobs for a week before AF showed so I will keep track of pre-AF symps this time as well to hopefully see a trend.  At least, something that happens every time so I can say “yep it worked this time – because I never had that before”.  Anyway, fingers crossed for everyone in the TWW this month – Hopefully you will all be preggo when  I get ready to join the TWWaiting game!

 

monday’s

suck.  seriously.  I am dreading work a little lot today.  All these stupid meetings about teamwork which I already know about.  I wish this lady (Susie is her name) would just leave me the hell alone.  If you ‘ll remember I posted about her before.  Her daughter wanted to get pregnant and I wouldn’t lend her my book.  She’s had it out for me ever since.  Always coming behind me and trying to catch something I did wrong.  Well, I’ve had enough.  Basically what happened was : people kept taking the supplies I kept in my workroom – I told my supervisor about it and she passed along the message to first shift supervisor.  Apparently that is where it stopped because nothing was getting done and my supplies were still going missing.  So I zip-tied my equipment together so that it would stay put and I could work  when I got there instead of spending the first 30 min to an hour looking for my stuff.  Well, first shift came in and had a shit fit.  Told the manager that I was being selfish and I didn’t care about anyone but myself (because MY work equipment was gone).  I tried the next day to talk to Susie one- on-one like adults (keep in mind she is about 52).  She put her hand in my face and said it’s not my problem you need to talk to the supervisors – um duh that is what I was trying to do to begin with….didn’t work.  That meeting just escalated into a meeting with my manager and susie – which she ended up walking out of…with the manager still in the room.  After all that - now today I have to go to a guided meeting with our company team counselor.  Hopefully something good will come of this and maybe I can learn something worthwhile to help me talk with people objectively.  I”ll let you know how it goes.