gained 4 lbs. this week – bummer.

I can’t say that I am super surprised seeing as I made WAY TO MANY bad choices of food on our trip. Still though, I am a little bummed. I can’t seem to get that exercise bug back – although I did try one of the BL challenges last night and did 100 up/downs in 12 minutes. So I guess that is the silver lining. I needed to document the gain (even though I could have just as easily not said anything) so that I keep myself accountable. If I skipped the weigh in this time it would be easier to skip it next time. It’s that hard that makes us great right?!

 

Goal reassessments

Tomorrow I will have “officially” lost 40lbs. Let’s not get into the “where the hell did it go” because I have no clue! So I got to thinking well my second goal was to be 170 by 4.8.09 – well I am 175 right now and that goal seems to easy so I have reassessed my current situation and have decided that 160 by 4.8.09 is a better target. Also, they say that you should stick with the same scale when you are on a “journey” like mine but I couldn’t help but wonder why? So yesterday I stepped on the scale at work. It is digital vs. the old school one I use. Not surprisingly I weighed more on that scale than I do on mine. Keep in mind that weigh in situations are a bit different. At home I weight in with nothing on…just my glasses…and it’s right when I wake up. At work I was wearing Jeans and shoes and it was right before dinner so I had eaten b-fast and lunch already. Still, seems like they should have been a little comparable right? Not almost 10lbs. different right? I guess this is WHY they tell you NOT to weigh on other scales.

While I was resetting my goals I thought it would be a good idea to also talk about my rewards system (which i have lazily not setup). I had a thought that I would get a tat after I met my second goal but I would much rather have a massage right now! SO I thought that while I was in vegas I would get an in room hour long aromatherapy massage or maybe the stone therapy? Whatever, I’m getting one! My body hurts in places I could not have imagined and I don’t need more pain from getting tatted up before we go! Here is a list of tentative goals and rewards:
#2 = 160lbs by 4/8 – massage in vegas
#3 = 150lbs by 5/6 – CBEFM or clothes because by this time I won’t be able to wear my current clothes.
#4 = 140lbs by 6/10 – ??? yeah right TTC!!!!!!
#5 = 130lbs by 7/22 – *Party* Total Goal MET!!!

* Currently listening to:

 

baby steps….

I stepped on the scale this morning and bam…..5 lbs. lost! Im telling you this is crazy! The closer I get to my goal weight the more I am like OMG I get to start trying again! We leave for St. Augustine this coming weekend and I am going to be 40 lbs. lighter than the last time I was there! OH and just to let you know my most recent discovery is that I LOVE LOVE LOVE Mamma Mia. LOVE IT. I was a little skeptical at first because you know Meryl trying to sing and dance….seriously? I was waiting till it came out on video but then life got busy and I forgot – but now? NOW I am going to by the soundtrack so I can have some awesome workout music! I just love ABBA.

In other news – my chart is looking very different from the last one – by now my temps would have shot up and I would be getting the hatched lines saying I might have O’ed – by CD 11. But today they are staying right around 96.7ish. I am going start taking OPK today and for the next 7 days in hopes that I will catch the surge. Last cycle looks like annovulatory which bums me out cause I thought I did good – but no. So to help pass the time I am going to look at quilt patterns and start planning my next project. Sometime this is the only thing that keeps me going. I am also going to start re-reading my HP book series. In my copious spare time an all.

 

new motivation

We were in wally world yesterday and happened to wander through the baby isle (yeah right) because I was in need of some new motivation.  Jo seemed a little reluctant not because she didn’t want to go but because she knows that in the past these trips through baby-ville have done nothing but make me depressed at the fact that we don’t have a child yet.  I was able to talk her into it and we had a great time – we even found this cute little onesie and I bought it.  It says “Mommy’s lucky charm” and it has a 4 leaf clover on it.  I know it sounds stupid  – buying clothes for a child that doesn’t exist yet but I couldn’t help myself.  Last night I came home and did crunches with it on my belly.  As  I type this I realize how insane I sound but I wonder if there are others out there like me.  Who don’t listen to the logic and then have buyers remorse afterwards.    Otherwise it was a good trip to SW and we did find a really cute car seat that we liked …… jeez it’s never ending.

 

Moving right along into my chart – now if I were trying (and a betting girl) I would say hells yeah this is the cycle that worked.   It appears as  if I have achieved the ever elusive “tri-phasic chart” without even trying.  I knew that this time it was going to be a little crazy but what the hell is going on?  I still haven’t figured out how to post or share the damn thing on here so you can see what I’m talking about.  I need help understanding this mess of a chart.  I know that outside things can affect it so maybe that’s it?  This mornings temp went up to 97.5 from 97.2 and I spotted some yesterday?  Who knows….moving on.

 

In LOSER-ville yesterday we bought some hand weights.  We didn’t have any prior to this so the videos were challenging but we weren’t getting the most out of the workouts that we could sooooo ba dum bum now we have hand weights.  This week I am going to NOT do the videos and really work on toning some of my arms and abs by doing strength exercises.  I fully expect to gain weight either this week or next but I need to lose some inches as well so it’s not a one sided love affair.  I don’t want to be flabby(er).  So the swiss ball is my friend this week and I am going to try to do as much as I can in my waking hours spent home and not at work.  I will be working some mega OT this week and next to help fund Jo’s B-day trip(s).

 

words don’t do it justice

so I have decided to post some pics of me from my starting weight back in august (before I though i needed to lose weight) and one from tonight. 

all in all -  I am really proud of the progress I have made so far and can’t WAIT for the 190 pic to be my “before” pic 

 

WHOO HOO!

I am down 2 more lbs. this week for a running total of about 25 lbs.! I am really excited! I met my weekly goal of 2 lbs. and I am on track to meet my monthly goal as well of 10lbs. Jo stayed the same this week she is in a rut right now – so we have to kick up the activity levels to get her back on track for the month. Anyway, I am really excited to share my news and what better place to share it

Also, I am kicking some PCOS ass!  My period (although i spotted for about 3 days before AF officially started) only lasted 6 days – 6 DAYS!!!!!  I can’t believe it.  It’s like I flipped a switch in my body to “ovulation on” or something!  So trying not to get too excited but having regular periods is like getting a bike for Christmas – you want it but don’t think you’ll ever get it!  So in celebration of this MOMENTOUS event – I started temping and I will start charting on fertility friend.  I never wanted to do it before because my cycles we so long and it was too depressing to see that line stay flat.  I am hoping that now things are getting more on track I might see some temp shifts at least withing .3 degrees.  please oh please change a little.

 

weigh in 1/14/09

Crystal
CW – 193
SW – 215
LBS GONE FOREVER – 22

Jo
CW – 282
SW – 297
LBS GONE FOREVER – 15

We are trucking right along and watching our weight and our waist lines get a little smaller each day. This week I lost the other of the two lbs. I gained at christmas. SO I am finally back down to my first goal – and yet to start on goal 2 of 170 by 4.8.09. Geesh, who knew getting healthy was so frieken hard – it’s a good thing I didn’t make a resoultion to lose weight or I would have already quit!

 

flux

not exactly sure what is going on with my weight – last week I gained 2 lbs. but since AF started to show a little last night  I figured the weight gain was normal water weight.  I have been trying out some new exercise videos that I really enjoy doing – but they combine weights in the cardio so I am hoping that the gain is from muscle build up.  My next goal is 170 buy 4/8.  This one will be much harder to reach so I have to be even more diligent.  Jo and I were talking last night about our mini goals and rewards system and I got to thinking that the only reward I want  – is to see a happy healthy baby in the crib.  Even thoughwe are not actively TTC  these last 3 months my ultimate goal is still to get my honey knocked up.  We just don’t see the sense in trying when we are so over weight – it feels like we are wasting our chances and we don’t have the money to do that.  So first things first – and our weight is coming down nicely – I was down 22.5 lbs before my gain last week and Jo is down 17 lbs.  I was concerned that losing wouldn’t make a difference in my PCOS but surprisingly my periods are starting to regulate in just 3 months!  I am no longer spotting in between or having AF  for 60, 90,120 days or sometimes longer.  I actually had to go to the doctor one time to stop the bleeding because  I was anemic.  yikes!  I feel better, my clothes are looser, and my moods are better too!  So my official reward for goal #2 is a tat.  But really I am rewarded every day ( corney i know).

 

times are changing

We got a few christmas miracles this year – I was able to finish my mom’s quilt on time, I met my christmas weight loss goal and we recieved some monetary help )
The quilt is beautiful! It’s a log cabin pattern… in a queen size bed spread! I did it all on my little machine at the house and I was really impressed with how it turned out. I will post some pics of it later so you can all see )
Second my chirstmas weight loss goal was to be at 193.5 and I MADE it! Un-real. That’s not to say that since i made it I haven’t taken this weekend off to enjoy some pretty yummy holiday foods – but I met my first goal so YEAH for me!
Third, the monetary help. We were very fortunate to get some help in becoming debt free – I am happy to report now that ALL of our debt is paid in full and the credit cards have been cut – every single one.
Scoobie got a new home (our female boston) because she was getting aggressive. She and our older female got in a fight and knocked daisy’s two front teeth out when she bit her through the bottom of her mouth. As much as I didn’t want to see her go – we found a really great home with lot’s of running room (a farm) where she is the only dog. It’s an older couple so they needed some companionship too. She has been gone for a week now and while I am sad about it – I am happy that I had a small part in making them all a happy new family )
Last (i think), my cousin is living with us. This has been the biggest adjustment so far. He and his wife are getting a divorce and he needed a place to stay. Since we all work at the same place and on the same shift it just made sense. He doesn’t have a car so we have been his ride for the last two weeks. We are going looking for some used cars and an apartment SOON. Not that I don’t love him being here but I love my privacy more – honestly there is nothing like sitting on your back porch naked or in your recliner naked or just being…… naked. I miss that A LOT. So some incentive for both of us to get it together to help him – get it together!

 

I DID IT!!!

I lost 2lbs. this weekto put me under 200 for the first time in at LEAST 4 years!  I am sooOOOOOO excited  I just don’t know what to say!  So that puts me at a total of 17 lbs. lost so far and 5 more will get me to 25% of my goal.  Damn I feel great!