Hi, it’s Crystal. So, this year has been a doozy. I was a little upset last year when I didn’t have a reason to buy that VB Diaper bag that I have been wanting so this year it would be really great if you could have a little follow through. I mean, I have been moderately good all year so what’s the hold up? Also, it would be great if you could send over someone who wants to buy our house. If you can’t seem to get the preggo thing done this year, I understand, you are a busy man, but we would like to move somewhere a little more “family friendly”. Case in point – we need a buyer. I know this sounds like a lot but really it’s not. With your ability to stop time and visit every single house in the world…surely you can find the time to talk to whoever and get this stuff taken care of. It’s not like I am asking for twins or anything…although… no, no, just one…for now. Oh, and sorry about eating all the cookies on your plate last year. I have one more request, as if this isn’t already a huge list…I would like my friends to get everything they asked for as well. Not the generic stuff either – the really important stuff like – answers to medical problems, BFP’s, monetary help…stuff like that. I know of one family in particular that is having a very hard Christmas. He lost his daughter and two grandchildren in a car accident 2 weeks ago. I would be really great if you could bring him some peace and lift the burdens off his heart. I guess that’s all for now…but if you need to find me for anything you know where I live and you can always face.book me!
December 12, 2009
December 11, 2009
done…#2 tomorrow afternoon. I haven’t been checking her ovulation or tracking temps or anything for her…she like a simplistic approach tot TTC. It’s anyone’s guess if we caught the egg or not. I have a good feeling about this time though. In other news the met is making me sick as a dog…all day yesterday, and tired I can’t get enough sleep, and cranky – of course this is all from the medication. I wouldn’t act like that normally riiiight LOL!
December 9, 2009
So ok, it’s been a week since I posted and yeah I did notice. I had a semi-pissed off breakdown tonight at work. It wasn’t pretty peeps. I think it was just the culmination of a week full of crap. That’s really the only thing I can think. It started off this morning with the 1/2 lb. weight gain and just went down hill from there. Long story short – I ended up in tears on my lunch break and Jo got an earful.
In other news – I sold my first quilt top this week! It was totally awesome! I have a list a mile long of projects that I have to get done by Christmas and not nearly enough time in my day to get it all done! Also, I would like to give a little shout out to J and B for the lovely Christmas card and box full of fabric – it was so sweet…you guys are awesome and I am looking forward to sending you a gift back in a few months!
In TTC news – insem will probably happen on friday/Sat. I think this cycle we will only be able to get in one or two so it will be a hail mary pass for sure for us this month. Here’s to all our Christmas BFP’s!
December 1, 2009
Jo and I have decided to switch it up this month and let her try. Actually it’s awesome because I am glad for the break :O) Meanwhile, I feel like I am coming down with a cold – so at least I can take cold meds this month. As for the adoption – we have been thinking of alternatives and it seems that we will not be able to adopt here in florida however, we can be power of attorney - so I don’t know if we will do it or not. I don’t want to get attached to this baby and then she can come get it whenever she wants to ya know. Oh well, lots to think about and in the mean time we will continue TTC and hope that we get our BFP soon :O)
November 26, 2009
AF is here. I am trying to stay positive…but it’s not working. Why does this have to suck so bad?
November 25, 2009
11 and 12dpo…
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I started spotting last night. It was a couple of pink spots no big deal and then it stopped….until around 6 pm tonight. I had a couple more spots only when I wipe but I am and have been cramping like a crazy person. I have a headache, and tooth pain too 
I know that spotting around this time is still ok…but it’s like a bad acid trip…I keep re-living this same nightmare of getting my period over, and over, and over and over again. Only then I wake up and realize that it’s not a nightmare – it’s real life and it sucks. While I’m on the subject let me just say that even though I am a little bummed right now I am very thankful that I have a cycle that will start normal, that I had a cycle that I ovulated and I actually got to see the change on the monitor, that we have a donor that is willing to meet us 6 times in a 12 day span, that I get to take this journey with the love of my life and that I have a great support system both at home and here in blog-land 
For ALL of these things I am thankful beyond words. I refuse to let these spots take away from all of the bright wonderful things in my life.
Happy Thanksgiving!
November 18, 2009
I am concerned that because I took 100mg clomid this time that my period is going to be even worse than normal. The cramping is here and it’s getting more intense like to the point where I might have to take some aleve. I try to stay medication free if I can so that is no small statement for me. It f’in hurts though. My boobs are sore – have been since 2 dpo. Normally they get that way a week before AF arrives – which on one hand makes me happy because that means I shouldn’t have a 40 day cycle this month. On the other hand it makes me sad because I know at 2dpo I would not be having symps… so it’s not “p word” related.
In other news, I got a new project yesterday that I am super stoked to get started on! It will be finished 70 x 70 size (a huge square) Which will be so pretty when its all done…I hope. Anyway, so far I am loving this sample maker stuff because it gives me a variety of things to try and I get to learn so much! Plus it keeps my mind off TTC (see, there we go again). I asked for a new sewing machine for christmas – just one to tinker on and to have as a back up when mine goes on the blink because it was used when I bought it and it’s and kinda old.
November 17, 2009
well…
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not to sound less than enthusiastic about this TWW but… I kinda am. I am trying – sorta successfully – to keep my mind on other things. To keep my mind so full of projects I don’t have time to think of anything else. I had some pretty intense cramping last night which makes me think AF is right around the corner and makes me a little sad. Part of me thinks well you did take the double dose of clomid and maybe it worked this time…but the other part of me thinks honestly how could this outcome be different than the last. The only time I allow myself to think about it when I’m blogging so it might be sparse this TWW just because I am trying not to over analyze every little symp or twinge. There is a song from the movie P.rince of E.gypt about miracles – even though it’s a kids movie they are still pretty powerful and I think the lyrics definitely apply to the head space I’m currently in or hoping to be in soon. One of complete faith and understanding that things happen for a reason – and that it’s not just a chliche’.
In workout world, I am set to run with my team tonight – well half of my team the other half is training and to gimpy to run LOL. Really though, it’s not funny she hurt her knees and ankles from running…I think because we don’t have good technique…maybe we should ask for some help with that. Anywhoo, I weigh in officially with my biggest loser state challenge today – starting weight is (drumroll please)…184.8 I know most girls would probably be sad with that number but as you know – starting from 230 a year ago – that number is cause for a celebration for me. I still have another 50lbs. I wanna lose. I need to be 130-135! That also means I NEED to get off my ass and stop whining about exercise especially when I have such an unexpectedly great support group at work.
November 13, 2009
OMG my first peak day on the monitor EVER! I dreamed about a peak last night and this morning – I got it. I’m so excited – insem #5 was done this morning and #6 is tomorrow morning. It will be the last one of this cycle.
November 11, 2009
I thought for sure the monitor would give me a peak day today but no… Still high which is good and I am thankful for but it would be nice to see a peak for once. I am set for another insem this afternoon and another run tonight. The running and working out is really helping to keep my mind off of the craziness of ttc right now. We walked last night 2.4 miles and today I am having a lot of sinus drainage…hopefully it will not turn into an infection that would make me have to take medicine. You know how that stuff just zapps fluid. Speaking of …I have noticed a nice progression of fluid this cycle and have checked my cervix twice and have been able to see a difference there too. I am still taking the metformin in half doses twice a day and it seems to be easier on my system and might even be more balanced to help my cycle as well. So, that’s the scoop in ttc world right now but I’m asking the heavens above to give me something more exciting to blog about it a little over two weeks time (positive hpt, positive HPT, POSITIVE HPT). Just putting it out there
In other news, my quilting projects are coming along so/so. Jo’s is finished with the exception of one border and I really want to throw it out the door. It has been a pain in my ass since I started it and I just don’t feel like I did all that good on this one. Good enough to be sure, but not at the same time. I also am getting ready to start making my jars of christmas goodies to sell, quillo.ws and casserole carriers too…for gifts and for sale. I am going to call them Casserole kimonos My boss is back from maternity leave and boy am I stoked about it! responsibility gone, stress gone, personnel issues…GONE! That was the toughest part of the job was managing the people – not fun. Anyway, with tropical storm Ida we are getting lots of rain so I gotta get going before it starts pouring again…send me some positive vibes ya’ll! Much love to everyone ttc – i hope we all win the baby lottery this month!
