is it all in my head….

I have been feeling waves of nasuea and cramps all day.   Like AF is coming.  No sore boobs…nothing awesome to report.  I made myself stop thinking about it and amazingly all of my symps went away.  I am starting to think it’s all an illusion…where is the middle ground between reality and delusion when TTC?  I am afraid to be too hopeful so I’m not disappointed and on the other hand…I can’t manifest properly if I don’t carry some of that hopeful feeling with me.  This sucks so hard and I don’t know what to do.  I just found out a girl I know is preggo with twins and she is 8 weeks along and feels nothing…so how can I possibly feel anything yet at approx. 9dpo?  *sigh*

 

seeing spots….

Temps plummeted this morning and thank heavens because  I really didn’t want to be on my period in Vegas.  I am thinking that tomorrow will be CD 1 – which makes me VERY happy!  Symps that we similar to last month is 

• Sore boobies – 5-7 days before
• Cramps – 1-2 days before
• fatigue – 1-2 days before
• cravings – insane cravings for buffalo sauce 7-10 days before
• Headaches – off and on around 3-4 days before
• acne – hopefully with the help of proactive this will no longer be on the list.

Other things that were not noticeable this month but were last month – are constipation, dizziness and thirst.  I am sure that some of these things were probably just flukes but I want to know which ones are *always (mostly) due to AF arriving.   So that’s today in a nut shell – I will post a pic of my chart later – this one is a doozy.  Still anovulatory…bummer.