So we are doing a basket raffle at my work to help raise money for the United Way.  I was thinking about making a TTC basket.  Dumb right.  Sure – I have all the stuff already Pre-seed, a CBEFM with sticks, OPK’s, HPT’s, ABC’s, 123’s, etc….  Here we are on CD 23 still not much to talk about.  No cramps no sore boobs no “feeling” that it worked.  Were are likely fuck’d again.  How do we manage to recover our sanity month after month on this brutal shitty ride.  I have no clue – no easy answer.  Pouring my soul out on here helps some but really in the grand scheme of things – not that much since no one knows me or seems to be listening.  Today is one of those “crap days” where you get a lot done – but only because you need something to keep your mind off the fact that a fucking billion people around you are getting pregnant and still not you.  Brutal.  It’s actually unfuckingbelievable.  I got another book – yeah me with my head in a book – that can maybe give me some hope or a little inkling that what I feel right now is normal at this point in the process.  That this hopeless feeling won’t always be there – that some dreams do come true.  I feel like an idiot.  I sometimes feel that this in the universe’s way of letting me know that I would be a shitty parent and it’s like “hey, I’m doing you a favor here”.  Asinine.  So umm yeah any ideas for a basket to raffle?