a brand new goal for a brand new me…

My new goal for this month is 2 fold

• weigh 175 on the digital scale or 155 on the old school one.
• Stick to my new eating/workout schedules.

I have been on the “new” schedules for about a week now and honestly – it is SOOO much easier to have things spelled out for me instead of waking up and saying “oh well, i don’t really feel like it today”.  As long as it’s on that paper I am obligated to do it because it a schedule I made.  Jo has also made one – not the same as mine which is really great because she’s responsible to keep it up. 

Losing weight is like remapping out your life.  Seriously, my love (near obsession) of food is just as hard an addiction to break as any other habit.  It may not kill you as fast as others but you are basically eating your life away with all kinds of diseases.  Learning how to eat without overdoing it is insanely hard.  I keep hearing people say that – there are underlying issues for reasons why people turn to food.  I agree.  I feel like I turned to food because I lack self esteem.  I feel like I am not worth it.  That others’ needs should be before my own – therefore I neglected myself and my health.  I also believe that I just LOVE to eat and that I am too lazy to cook because going out is so much quicker and easier and when you work all the time – convenience is what your looking for!  For now I will stick to my schedule and get that under control and then move on to re-establishing my cooking routine.  We might have to work something out between the two of us…moving forward but slowly. 

Quick happy side note * The last two days I have had NO nausea or diarreah.  Maybe my body is finally starting to get adjusted!  yeah!

 

Goal reassessments

Tomorrow I will have “officially” lost 40lbs. Let’s not get into the “where the hell did it go” because I have no clue! So I got to thinking well my second goal was to be 170 by 4.8.09 – well I am 175 right now and that goal seems to easy so I have reassessed my current situation and have decided that 160 by 4.8.09 is a better target. Also, they say that you should stick with the same scale when you are on a “journey” like mine but I couldn’t help but wonder why? So yesterday I stepped on the scale at work. It is digital vs. the old school one I use. Not surprisingly I weighed more on that scale than I do on mine. Keep in mind that weigh in situations are a bit different. At home I weight in with nothing on…just my glasses…and it’s right when I wake up. At work I was wearing Jeans and shoes and it was right before dinner so I had eaten b-fast and lunch already. Still, seems like they should have been a little comparable right? Not almost 10lbs. different right? I guess this is WHY they tell you NOT to weigh on other scales.

While I was resetting my goals I thought it would be a good idea to also talk about my rewards system (which i have lazily not setup). I had a thought that I would get a tat after I met my second goal but I would much rather have a massage right now! SO I thought that while I was in vegas I would get an in room hour long aromatherapy massage or maybe the stone therapy? Whatever, I’m getting one! My body hurts in places I could not have imagined and I don’t need more pain from getting tatted up before we go! Here is a list of tentative goals and rewards:
#2 = 160lbs by 4/8 – massage in vegas
#3 = 150lbs by 5/6 – CBEFM or clothes because by this time I won’t be able to wear my current clothes.
#4 = 140lbs by 6/10 – ??? yeah right TTC!!!!!!
#5 = 130lbs by 7/22 – *Party* Total Goal MET!!!

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weigh in 1/14/09

Crystal
CW – 193
SW – 215
LBS GONE FOREVER – 22

Jo
CW – 282
SW – 297
LBS GONE FOREVER – 15

We are trucking right along and watching our weight and our waist lines get a little smaller each day. This week I lost the other of the two lbs. I gained at christmas. SO I am finally back down to my first goal – and yet to start on goal 2 of 170 by 4.8.09. Geesh, who knew getting healthy was so frieken hard – it’s a good thing I didn’t make a resoultion to lose weight or I would have already quit!