home sweet mess…

When we walked in the door the smell was intense…. it was the smell of too old bread and AC not running for 3 weeks.  The smell of dust and general house settlement.  Amidst all the smell though there is a moment as your feet cross over the threshold that you say “ahhh…home.”   We moved our stuff back in today and now the living room is a gigantic mess.  The flood waters missed our home thankfully but others around us were not so luck y (we live on a bit of a hill).  While the time spent at MIL was uneventful in the way of arguments this time – it’s not the same as being home.

I am contemplating going back to the old scale and ditching the digital – for the simple fact that I started losing weight on that one and well…it’s always less than that damn digital one.  I am still undecided at what to do at this point.  Maybe I will use both   Food awareness is going well – I think I am down to 184 now so almost 2 lbs. since I started logging everything and sticking to my schedule.  I’d say that is success no matter how you slice it

I got drunk last night – so I didn’t take the met like I was supposed to because it says don’t mix – aren’t I a good patient.  OH yeah, like it was really hard to give up one night – I have felt better today than I have in almost a month of taking the damn things!  I called the doc – basically “stick it out if you can – call me if you can’t” was the response I got…..  Dr. funny pants is not so funny sometimes.  Then because my cell was lost I told the nurse to call Jo’s phone and leave a message – stupid nurse left “Hi, didn’t know your name was Joleen so I will NOT leave you a message”.   WTF?  Then she calls back and says “oh sorry my bad, I didn’t know you were partners…blah blah blah.”  I guess I should be happy that she at least sort of apologized…. and hey I found my cell too!

Today is CD 1 for me. Last cycle was about 39 days long.  They are growing longer and longer which I fear is going to jeopardize TTC when I finally make it to that point.  Common things are headaches and cramps exactly one week before like clock work.  No sore boobs this time that I can recall but hey I’ve been so consumed with the nausea and diarrhea from the met that maybe I just haven’t noticed.  I wonder if I am doing enough during my time off to prepare myself for “the long wait” of TTC.  I have been contemplating doing some meditation stuff now so that when we do start TTC I know how to do it.  Who knows, maybe I will try acupuncture too

 

some days i could float away….

            Sorry for the radio silence …lot’s going on in my neck of the woods lately or not depending on how you look at it.  My temps are still down – actually are zig zagging all over the place since I started taking the met. And it doesn’t look good for this month either as far as ovulation goes.  I Have been having some sort of clumpy CM but it has traces of brown in it (like old blood?) so not to sure about that. 

I don’t know if I have ever mentioned the terrain where I live but – it’s in between 3 rivers and where the merge is not to far.  Well Sunday I was making my usual rounds on the internet and got to weather.com and imagine my surprise when it says “FLOOD WARNING #1, #2, #3”!  I was like OMG SERIOUSLY?  I have a fear of the weather – wind mostly – because of all the old trees around our home.  I am really sacred that they will fall on the house while I sleep and so every night I check the weather.  Sounds crazy I know – but it’s the only way I can sleep at night.  Anyway, so now we are in the midst of what could be the worst flood our area has seen this 100 years!  Flood level is 19 and today we were already at that – projections put us between 27 -32 feet.  Holy friken crap.  The next step was to pack up anything that we thought we couldn’t lose…. as in was not replaceable.  Stop for a minute and think – what would you take?  Now imaging the worlds biggest pack rat x 2 and you can start to see what it was like at our house a mere 24 hours ago.  Voluntary evacuations have started.  We drove by the house and it’s already starting to come up the road. Yikes!

So we get everything packed up (the house is a wreck) and I call our flood insurance company to make sure that all payments have been made and the policy is up to date…yes – thank GOD – but (always a but) the stuff in the sheds is not covered sooooo….the unpacking of the sheds commenced.  Our generator, lawn mowers, grills…basically everything you don’t want in a house had to come in so that it would be covered on the insurance.  I took pics of everything but I forgot to take pics of our mattress set – dang gotta go back.

To make things just that much more of a pain…I lost my phone.  The brand new touch screen (to crazy to operate) phone.  We went out bowling on Sat. and we had a few beers (more like 6 or 7 for me) and after we sang karaoke at the bar I was going to take a pic and that was the last time I saw it.  I can’t make any calls on the go which is an inconvenience to say the least right now considering the floods and all. 

Now we come to the topic I have kinda avoiding…weight loss.  It’s not going well if at all.  I feel out of touch with that desire right now.  The met does seem to be helping but it’s only day 3 and I think that’s because it’s giving me diarrhea.  I can’t seem to stay hydrated enough on this medication and I seem hungrier than usual.  Is this normal for everyone else?  As it stands I have about 50 more lbs. to lose and that goal seems bigger than ever right about now.  I am hoping that things will level out here soon and I can take a jog tomorrow morning with Marley to help her focus and get my metabolism goin!

Last, the quilt projects.  As some of you know or even if you don’t – I like to quilt.  It’s my hobby it’s what I do…it’s my stress relief of sorts.  Well, I’ve got about 3 or four projects on my plate right now (mostly baby quilts) and I can’t wait to start them.  Problem is finding the time. More on that later since the post has run entirely too long….  Congrats to all the BFP’s out there this month -  I can’t wait until we can join you!