Sick

is what I am.  We did Karaoke this weekend outside and I can hardly speak.  I was a little inebriated so I guess when I was screaming and standing in front of the fan it didn’t register that hey I am probably going to get sick.  Anywho, I know you are all wondering and we are still waiting to test – we are currently 6 days overdue.  If we make it to 11 days overdue then we will test but NOT before then and that will be Saturday.  So today I am staying home from work and I am going to watch movies all day and sleep.  Ahhhh sleep.  On the movie list today:

• Memoirs of a Geisha
• Steel Magnolias
• Harry Potter 1
• Dan in Real Life
• Junior

I might try and crack open a few books – TCOF and Harry Potter 7 just to name a couple.  You know, for a sick girl I have a pretty busy day lined up

 

OH so much to say

We were able to get my BIL to come out and cut down the tree for only 75 dollars.  We were very fortunate that it did not hit the house.  I have not yet called back the doctor to find out what he has to say about what is going on with me but I am proud to report that I have been OFF my period for 3 days now with just a little break through spotting here and there.  Long enough to get some “special” time with my girl.

I am sad to report that my friend had a miscarriage at 7 weeks.  It really sucks because she was so happy to be out of the TTC club – only to be pushed back in against her will.  Totally crappy.  They remain hopeful that it will happen again – I don’t know if they are going to have to do a D&C or not.  What kind of crappy apt to have to make. 

I am reading a few books about church and gays.  Not often you see those two in a sentence together without some slander.  I am not done with the one yet but it has already given me some real perspective about our place in the church.  It’s called “Take this Bread”.    I have found some comfort in the pages of this book even though some of it is not what one would call comforting.  It talks of her atheist upbringing and how she stumbled upon the Episcopalian church.  So far it is excellent but I will give a full review once I am done   A review of the other two books I am reading will be posted when I get done with them as well.

In fertile news – no news.  We are on CD 21.  One week down and one week to go on the TWW.  We are staying at MIL’s right now since the rivers where we live are cresting now (overflowing) from Fay – blah.

 

The audacity

of some people surprises me.  I mean seriously WTF.  Yesterday I was sitting at a meeting and my 1st shift counterpart says and I quote ” hey I need to borrow the book.”  I with a very confused look on my face said “what book?” – you know “the book.”  She is of course refering to the book that I let someone else borrow and they got pregnant.  Taking Charge of your Fertilty is the book.

Normaly this wouldn’t have bothered me and I don’t have a problem helping anyone (since I already lent it out once) but I am not a pregnancy pimp.  It’s like I am the prego guru now and anyone is allowed to ask or comment on my personal stuggles with this issue.  I don’t freaking think so.  What got me most is – here we are in the middle of a staff meeting and out of the blue she is asking for the book – for her daughter – who Jo dislikes – a lot.  I told her politely that I packed it up somewhere and that I would give her the name and she can buy it at BAM.  I said “I understand you want mine because it’s got some luck on it” – “OH it worked for you guys” – FUCK NO.  “i thought you said it was lucky.”  There is the phrase that got me so pissed off.

Why do I let people bother me like that.  That last comment stung a littlelot.  Mainly because why hasn’t it been lucky for us yet – she is kinda right.  Makes me freaking mad.  And now what – we don’t need it anymore so people can just ask?  Screw that.  Was I wrong to feel that way – she probably doesn’t even know it bothered me – figured it was ok since I did it once.  That’s what my head is saying but my emotions are saying “who the hell are you to make assumptions – we aren’t done with it yet!”

Truth is my biggest fear is that someone else will get pregnant with my book other than me.  Is that the dumbest thing you have ever heard?  I am actually jealous of a possiblibty.  I am insane.