Fruit Looped

and that’s all I’m going to say about it.  I’m not going to mention the “P” word…it’s implied   We will get our BFP in approx. 7 days…just FYI.

is how we are doing this CD 17 insem.  We got one in on CD 11 and CD 13.   The days after that were filled with obstacles on one or both sides of the fence and we just couldn’t get together again until tonight.  We are on our way in a few and are armed with pre-seed, a syringe and hope.  I drank my tea already and have tried to get in some water today to help my CM but I don’t think it has helped much.  It’s still EW but just a little now not as much as yesterday and the day before.  I hope our window hasn’t already closed but it might have.  I took and OPK and I got a line but it wasn’t dark enough to me to say “yes now’s the time”.  I had twinges all night last night until I fell asleep so maybe, just maybe, we will catch the egg!  Please send us some STRONG +tive vibes!  Our TWW will officially start tomorrow morning, at least thats how I’m doing it, from the day of the last insem.  Three days in a row, three baby dreams in a row = three hopeful mornings that our dreams will come true this month.  I WILL get pregnant in August, August is the month I WILL get pregnant.

We did our first insem of “monkey” cycle today :O)  I did everything I could think of to get the little buggers to the egg!  Hips elevated…the works!  We even added a happy ending for good measure :O)  I had a dream about eating an apple last night – which is supposed to mean increased fertility…I guess we will see.  I also had a bull in that dream which is supposed to indicate a Taurus figure…this baby’s due date will be in may…a Taurus.  Coincidence?  I think not.

 I was going through the stuff under our sink tonight and found a box of red leaf raspberry tea – which is said to increase fertility.  So I decided I would start drinking it tonight and keep it up through this cycle.  1st insem is tomorrow and then we going to insem every other day until I get a positive OPK.   After I found the tea and some pre-seed (which we will also be using this cycle) we took down our old “wish list” and created the new one.  I got creative on this one and photo shopped my face on some random pregnant woman LOL :O)  I also put myself with a twin ultrasound

In other news by bouts of insomnia have found an outlet…farm town.  I have it on myspace AND on facebook…it is becoming a serious addiction.  I went to the salon today and the whole time my lady was talking I was thinking  “hmmm…I wonder if my tomatoes are ready to harvest”?  If you haven’t tried it…you probably shouldn’t…at least if you want to have any resemblance of a social life

Just a quick update: This week we are working on our insem schdeule with “new donor guy” and “old donor guy”.  We don’t have the money to do the IUI with Doc this month *boo*.    Also, I am trying to figure out which ferning test thinggy we are going to get – I can’t decide but I gotta choose quick I am on CD 6 today.  Any suggestions?  Which one was best/worst?  Can you do it yourself at home with an acutal microscope you already have?

AF is here and we are on our way to the BFP!  I am thinking about trying this ferning thing that everyone is talking about this cycle…what the hell right…couldn’t hurt.  August is the month I WILL get pregnant. I WILL get pregnant in August. 

I went to our annual health fair at work today and other than being overweight…cholesterol, BP and sugar levels were all in the ideal range!  Yay!  This is going to be a good month – I can feel it you guys :O)  Baby dust to everyone trying!  Now I am off for another night of insomniac activities…i.e  reading and watching Rosanne and hopefully NOT eating.

Tonight I will be up watching a meteor shower…by myself :O(  Jo has to work and won’t get to see it.  It’s supposed to start good around midnight which is great cause I will still be up!  Her schedule still has me messed up and I find it very hard to sleep without her there.  During the week I only get about 5 hrs. a night but on the weekends…it’s something like 10-11 hrs. 

In weight loss land – from somewhere out of the blue I got a shot of motivation and I am going to ride it as long as I can.  I suddenly have the strength to say NO to the bad things like mayo on sandwiches again.  I got a pedometer yesterday from the Active For L.ife program that we are doing at work.  I just have to log my daily activities now and hopefully our team will win!  I am competitive so that’s enough to drive me to complete this 12 weeks program.

In TTC world – still waiting on AF.  I am sure it’s because I changed my exercise routine that it’s taking SOOOOO long.  My last cycle was something like 48 -50 days.  The longest I ever went was 6 months without but then it turned back around and I had six months of AF….everyday.  I eventually ended up in the hospital anemic and had to have medication to stop the menses.   Really crappy. 

Otherwise, things are good.  My mom told me she was getting married and, I’m not sure yet, but I don’t know if I am happy about it.  I never expected her to get back with dad but something is still off.  Dentist appt to replace 2 fillings coming up next week and my boss is out from work on maternity leave.

I was looking at our “visualization” board the other day and imagine my surprise to see that almosteverything we asked for came true.  With the exception of a BFP we got every single thing on there!  After noticing that we decided it was a good idea to clean out our spare room to allow positive vibes to flow (sounds hokey I know).  You know, so that the universe knows we are ready and not keeping the nursery full of crap with no room for a baby.  While going through that room you would not believe that crap we found!  Old CD’s, VHS movies, prom pics, bags of old statements (which Jo is patiently shredding as I type this) and a whole bunch of other stuff.  We found a Care Bear from 1983 – Tenderheart…wonder if he’s a collectors?  I found my old crochet needles too!  I got creative when I found a skein of yarn and made the cat a collar with a small tail – she is effing hilarious with that thing on!  She can’t walk two step without getting pissed and rolling all over the floor – *evil grin*.   Now, however, the living room floor is covered in old papers and boxes that we still need to go through.  After the inside is done we move to the outside for some too-late-for-spring-cleaning and yard work…blah.

to meet this guy who my mom has found.  Hopefully this is not a colossal mistake!  In weight loss news, I have been increasing my water intake this week and getting a slow start up back into my workout/eating routine.   Jo’s new work schedule is getting me all mixed up too…I can’t sleep because I am used to her being there and now I have “empty bed syndrome”.  So in order to get some zzz’s I have resorted to sleeping with my stuffed Hello Kitty and Roseanne on the tele.  Crazy sounding I know…

“The List” update – I have just about decided on French because for some reason – I feel like I will be needing in at some point in my life…maybe we will live in Paris…who knows what the future holds?

In TTC news, I am waiting for AF now and I don’t think it will be long…by the way my breast feel it could be any day.  Once she gets here we are thinking if this meeting goes well that we might do both IUI and then at home with C?  Maybe I am thinking too far in advance?

Souhaitez-nous la bonne chance !  Au revoir

One more down and 58 to go.  It’s better than 100 more to go…   Will I ever get to a place where I can be happy for a pregnant someone?